Skate spergers

I am happy with reflecting on my contest run history from the Blockless Combat Comp. It is interesting that allthough my nerves were up at this event I kept my skating at a consistent level.
Currently I am making improvements on the moves in these videos and learning a few new tricks.
Yet I am not as nervous when I skate in the weekly sessions compared to the contest.
So why am I going into an OCD style overload of a routine just to drop in now?
Answer is Skate spergers, I will not loose my drop in no way I have come to far for that to happen.
Perhaps the nerves are always there contest or not, and when it's just a session with less pressure to get in I start to indulge in this routine thing I have. I think it should phase out and be replaced soon enough by some other behaviour like a touchdown celebration at the end of every run?